Season of waiting
Last week was a rough week for a lot of different reasons. Daylight savings time. More job rejections for my husband. Two friends lost loved ones. Just so much that was getting me down. I thought a lot about seasons of life. While we all go through the annually seasons together, we are all at different places when we go through seasons of life.
The Bible says: "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens" Ecclesiastes 3:1
Currently, my life personal life seems to be stalled out in the season of waiting. It is a frustrating and sometimes discouraging place to be. My husband has been without a job for three months now. He was employed last year as a contractor at an insurance company after nine months of waiting for a door of employment to open. Before that, he had had a very successful career in insurance for 12 years. The insurance company where he was working promised him a temp to hire job, but during his time there the company underwent a reorganization and his contractor job was eliminated at the end of the year. He's been applying and interviewing every week to no avail. We are stumped. What is God up to? What is it he wants for our future? My husband is a hard worker with many marketable skills but still doors keep shutting. So, we wait.
Waiting for an answer is hard. I would argue one of the hardest things we humans must go through. Not knowing the outcome of our lives is sometimes overwhelming. This past week as I watched two families lose loved ones my perspective of my own trial changed. I was reminded again what this life is all about. To go to Heaven, and take as many with me as possible. That is my church's mission statement, and I love it. It's simple and straight to the point of what really matters here on earth. We need to have an eternal perspective on our lives. We need to remember that this season of life we are going through is temporary. It is merely a blip on the radar of our eternity. We go through trials in this life to draw us closer to God. God has never left, we just took our eyes off Him.
It reminds me of the story of Peter in Matthew 14:22-33. He wanted to walk on the water like Jesus, and HE DID…until he took his eyes off Jesus. In the magnitude of the moment, fear struck his heart and he began to sink. Peter cried out "Lord, save me!" "Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
How many times must God say the same thing to me? I get my focus off Him and the real purpose He has for my life, and my husband's life, and I start to sink into despair. God has a plan and I need to stop being a control freak demanding answers. In God's timing, He will lead us into the next season of life. In each season there is something for us to learn. I am learning that in the season of waiting I need to embrace the lessons, keep my eternal perspective, and find something to be grateful for in each day I am given.