Hello again everyone! I am back after a month-long hiatus. It wasn’t planned, but I think it was necessary. December was filled with illness and struggle in my house.
December was a rough month in my house. I went into the month excited to be a part of my church’s Christmas play called “A New Christmas Carol.” The Christmas Carol story is one of my favorites. I was so thrilled to have a part in the play, along with my sister, nieces, and nephew. A week before the play though I got sick. Like REALLY sick! It ended up being the worst sinus and respiratory infection I have ever had. I lost my voice as a part of it and could barely get my lines out for the play. Luckily, I only had three lines at the beginning of the play. I was so bummed that it didn’t end up being the fun thing my family and I wanted it to be, but more of an obligation I had to get through. Thankfully everyone in the cast and audience was so gracious with me and many people loved the play.
My husband was informed that his last day of work at the temp job he has been working at for a year would be December 31st. We were disappointed at this because we had hoped that he would be hired on at the end of the year. Sadly, the business he worked for seems to have had a slow year and have been letting people go recently. In my husband’s words, “I feel like a took a good bet, and it didn’t pay off.” So, he is now on the job hunt again. All his experience has been in insurance processing and we are praying something opens up soon.
Christmas didn’t feel as jolly this year and everything just felt off. I struggled with the messiness around me and remembering the real reason for this time of year. I know God is with me and that there is nothing new under the sun. None of what is happening around me or to me is a surprise to Him. He has control and I need to learn to find peace in that. It is a lesson I feel I am constantly coming back too. Rest and peace. Allowing God to work out the details and not trying to be such a control freak is hard for me. I think the biggest thing God gives us to combat these emotions is the ability to remember. Remember the past hurts, struggles, and messes, and then remember how far God has taken you from those times. He has been and will always be with you if only we would let Him near.
So, I started thinking about this past year, and OH MY GOODNESS what a year it has been! Probably one of my best. I even went to Facebook and scrolled through my photos I posted this year to help me remember. God has been so good! My two favorite memories are as follows:
First, (and obviously) my book! I finally finished it! It is real and I actually sold some copies! I look back on the two year struggle I went through to get the book done and I can see God’s hand in all of it. I prayed and prayed that I was doing the right thing. I doubted and wrestled with God over it. During all that I found Help-a-heart. My people. The people who get my story, love me for it, and want to help others like me. I look forward to being even more involved with them in 2018. I know meeting all of them was a God-thing. I have gotten so many compliments about my book and I love hearing how it has impacted people’s lives. My prayer for 2018 is the I learn how to better market my book and get it into even more hands to read it.
Secondly, I finally got to take a trip out to California to see my best friend from college. It has been a bucket list item for me for the past ten years. Amy and I met at Evangel University and have a been kindred spirits ever since. I got to meet her kids and see her home town. It was wonderful! I loved that my travel buddy was my other best friend from college Kristi. She and I were roommates for a semester. Kristi and Amy are such awesome women of God. True friends and encouragers. I began and ended the trip in tears. Happy tears! It was such a blessing trip. I really hope I can return in a few years.
Even though this year may have not ended on the high note I was hoping for, I can look back and remember all the good the God has given me. He continues to lead, love, protect, provide, and bless. If 2017 wasn’t a good year for you, or even if it was, I encourage you take a moment to look back and remember. Remember that in everything there is a purpose. A purpose to grow you and bless you.
My prayer is the 2018 is a year of growth and many blessings for all of us.