The past few weeks of my life have been crazy. From my book launching to celebrating my 35th birthday to preparing to be in the Christmas play at church, family gatherings and being very busy at work so much has been going on that I feel like the last two months of my life has just flown by. It’s been a while since the last time I blogged. Sorry about that.
I find that when I am super busy stress and worry about everything in my life starts to build. Even if all the things I am busy doing are good things I don’t allow myself to time stop, relax, and focus on the things that matter. Trying to find peace and quiet in the business of life is very hard sometimes. I found I have stopped writing, stopped reading my Bible daily, and even stopped cleaning my house on a consistent basis. I just don’t have the time. I’ve also been stressed about my job and my husband finding a full-time job with benefits for next year. Life has felt like whirl-wind.
This week I am on vacation from work and trying to be intentional about relaxing. I purposefully made sure to not make any plans and just take time for myself. To do what I wanted to do and not worry about all the other stuff that needs to get done. To be honest, it’s hard for me to do that. I like to have plans. I like to be organized. It is hard for me to just stop and read a book, watch a movie, or even write sometimes. Currently, as I am writing this, there is a pile of laundry in the corner of my living room staring me down. It needs to be folded, put away, and all the ironing needs to be done too. BUT no, not today. Today is about no responsibilities, obligations, or business.
I purposefully slept in and started my day with devotions. It felt good to let my body rest. It felt good to my soul to get back to reading my Bible. I’ve been studying Philippians recently and even though it’s only four chapters, I’ll be honest, it’s taken me a month to get through it. Taking time out to read my Bible, pray, spend some alone time with my Lord has been tough lately. It shouldn’t be, but if I’m being an honest human it’s one of the toughest things I struggle with. Now prayer I’ve gotten a hold of. My mother taught me early on that prayer should be an open conversation between you and God. Never stop praying. So I do talk to God a lot but a lot of those prayers are asking for things. “God please help me keep my cool with this co-worker.” “God please provide my husband with a great full-time job with benefits next year” for the millionth time. “ God please be with _______ who just asked for prayers for _____ on Facebook.” And on and on…you know what I mean. How many times do I just stop and thank God? Not as often as I should, sadly. I have been given so much, yet I forget in the business of life to stop, breathe, look around, and be grateful for all God has given me.
My goal this week is to get back on track with the Lord. Find ways to rest and enjoy the life I have been given. Love on my family and friends more. Be thankful for all that God has given me. It’s a lesson I seem to need to learn over and over again. Are you the same way? I have to remind myself that even God rested. I need to too. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. It’s a holiday to specifically remind us to give God thanks for all He has given us. I will do that today, tomorrow, and aim to do that every day in the future.
In an effort to give myself time to rest, I am going to scale back my blogging to once (maybe twice) a week. I have so much to catch you all up on!
I want to finish by saying thank YOU. Thank you to you for reading my blog and joining me on this journey that God has put me on. I am humbled and grateful that you have joined me. May God bless you and yours this holiday season.
Love and thankfulness, Tiffany